6 LONG YEARS

It's been 6 long years.  In that time frame I got a better job, quit music, started coaching high school basketball lost friends, got married and gained family.  It's hard to find your calling.  What is the purpose of being on earth? I'm still trying to figure out.  I love the feeling I get when music I make comes to fruition and people enjoy it.  

I love the feeling I get when I'm on the sidelines with my heart pumping yelling out instructions to my players.  I probably need a perfect blend between the 2.  I'm 36 and still trying to figure out life.  I just try to treat people well, mind my business and do what makes me happy.  Hopefully, everything else will fall into place after that, for me it always has.  GOD has always made a way for me, even at my lowest points he has made a way for me.  Even when I didn't deserve it.  

My music is currently on the top streaming sites which is a blessing, but now my goal is to empty my files and have everything put out there.  Life is short, this is my legacy at the end of the day, a door to my life, the why to my life, the window to the soul.  So, if nothing else if people really want to know me I have hundreds of songs explaining my truth.  It hurts when you put your heart into music and it falls upon deaf ears.  Now, this isn't always the case.  I have supporters that still play my music from 2010 I should be grateful for that.  But, I feel like I have a whole career after that, that has gone unnoticed.  J Cole said something to the affect of an "an artist just wants to be appreciated."  I fully agree with that.  As an artist you can get in your own head at times, and you just want to be validated.  I don't know if I will ever feel appreciated or validated.  Bitching and Moaning has never been my M.O. so, man up keep doing you and maybe just maybe one day people will see the genius in you.